WASTED

sad sad budapest

2012-01-17T12:08:00.000-08:00

Sad pictures from Budapest. No. I don't want to talk about it. I don't want to talk about it, because they could see it. And that would end it. I mean it wouldn't be a problem, if she sees it, because she can't even understand it, with her 'awesome' humor. Good luck in life, biatch.

x

bohinj-bled

2012-01-17T12:05:00.000-08:00

First weekend of traveling and making 'friends'. First week, first time realizing that I don't feel it, and I won't feel it for the whole time. I was sure, and I was right. Oh, no. I lied. I 'kind of' felt it. Once. For two days. That was the closest to it. To call them friends. Not them. But the others. It was nice. It was good. But then I'll go home, and it will be all okay. I will 'forget' the bad things. The things that made me cry. Every day, actually. Good. Enough. Bye.

xx

wien for the weekend

2012-01-17T12:02:00.000-08:00

Here. Here I felt that. I felt what I couldn't feel for several days. Weeks, actually. They got it. And that was all. Two days. And I knew. Nevermind, it couldn't last. I don't know why, but it was so enough, and so good. And I miss it. It was almost perfect. ALmost. Anyway. I'll see you again soon. Even if it will be for one night. It will be enough.

You were the best,
xx

piran-portoroz-koper-izola-postojna

2012-01-17T11:58:00.000-08:00

One day at the coast. Amazing day. Amazing place. Nothing more. I don't feel it. I don't feel the friendship or whatever 'ship' I should feel. Weird. Why can't I feel it? Why can't I make new friends when I need to? Bad. I just want what I had, it was much more better. Much more.

xx

how?

2012-01-17T11:49:00.000-08:00

worst days and best days mixed together, it's like living a nightmare in heaven. Someone stealing my wallet, having one of my best friends over for the whole weekend, terribly, fundamentally, radically missing my boyfriend, knowing that I have only four more weeks left in Ljubljana, knowing that I will miss everyone here, knowing that I will get back my old friends, and feeling home again for real... all these feelings rolled into one.. well, frankly, it's hard to cope with. And those changes.. new piercing, old hair colour, new clothes, finding out that I can't pay for my new pants in Zara, since I don't have my perfectly new Element wallet anymore.. it's bad. So bad. Fuck you, really. I had 8 fuckin' euros in it. Why did you need it? Fuckers fuckers fuckers. hate you hate you, hope you'll die and go to hell soon.
'die jerk, bye jerk.'

:)

2011-11-20T15:38:00.000-08:00

bad days are bad

2011-10-28T23:21:00.001-07:00

when i don't feel really good. actually yea..

week 3

2011-10-28T00:00:00.000-07:00

3rd week was awesome. can't really explain with other words. he visited me on tuesday, and stayed until saturday. how could it be better? just a couple of clouds for me, ofcourse: no scholarship yet, therefore, no trips to some really tempting destinations, i.e. croatia, italy, austria, hungary. and there are just a few. i decided to try to make a record while i'm here, and visit a lot of places.
this weekend will be a long one, since monday and tuesday is national holiday, so i'll have time to discover slovenia and ljubljana, of course.
tomorrow trip to maribor! (pictures coming soon)
xx

laundry day

2011-10-15T05:10:00.000-07:00

lazy loundry day with vine
still fucked up.
missing everything. not even sure that i want to be here.

2011-10-08T11:18:00.000-07:00

what's happening, i don't want it i don't want it anymore

doggy

2011-10-06T01:29:00.000-07:00

out & about

2011-10-02T08:37:00.000-07:00

today I went out in the city, to see the Tivoli park, and other stuff. It was nice and warm outside, a calm sunday afternoon.

waking up alone...

2011-10-02T03:04:00.000-07:00

I bought a big mac menu today. i really missed it, it tasted like home :DD

.. kind of sucks. .. .

wish you were here

2011-09-30T07:25:00.000-07:00

before a party for foreign students. we got really drunk on the streets, on the steps by the river, it was nice and calm, everybody was cool and all.
im just lonely for no reason, wanna jump out of my dorms window or something, shit.

first days in ljubljana

2011-09-30T07:20:00.000-07:00

today i was able to go into some stores in the center, i mean i was sad or whatever, i didn't even had the desire to go shopping and see some beautiful clothes.
but here it is, i bought a shirt for only 5 euros (originally 20), a pencil case for 2.4 euros and some milk :)

here everyone rides a bike, and not those ugly ones, called mountain bikes, but cute city bikes. i photographed one of them, which was the coolest one, because it had some flowers in the basket and everything. i should really buy a bike sometime.
xx

the cake story

2011-08-15T01:45:00.000-07:00

I haven't made a picture of the finished cake, I guess I just forgot it. Anyway, it is really easy, you just have to put the pineapple cream on the top of the chocolate cake (pic above) and put it in the fridge for a couple of hours. In the end you should cook a mix which contains vine, honey and icing sugar and put it on the top of the cake when its completely cold, it will make the magic trick.

the mushroom story

2011-08-12T09:45:00.000-07:00

the wedding

2011-08-09T14:56:00.001-07:00

2011-07-16T05:01:00.003-07:00

being extremely excited about my next semester in Ljubljana!
I hope it'll be awesome and I'll enjoy it

2011-06-10T01:50:00.001-07:00

I'm tired of doing everything twice.

2011-06-07T12:20:00.001-07:00

2011-06-07T12:17:00.000-07:00

watch you back bitch

2011-05-26T11:59:00.000-07:00

Do you intentionally injure yourself, for instance by cutting yourself or taking too many pills?
Are you focused on order and perfection?
Do other people accuse you of being self-centered?
Do you tend to lie a lot?
Do you often feel uncomfortable in social situations?
Have you ever exaggerated illness or other weakness in order to get attention?
Have others accused you of being arrogant?
Do others accuse you of being rigid or stubborn?

Do you have a hard time throwing things away, even if they are old and worn out?

wanna go back

2011-04-18T14:07:00.000-07:00

PARIS 2010

2011-02-21T13:06:00.001-08:00

it should make a difference when someone loves you. shouldn't it?

2011-02-21T07:35:00.000-08:00

i can't keep being your second choice when you're my first

you say red

2011-02-12T02:09:00.000-08:00

nothing much to say also nothing much to do. i mean i really should start on my studying but i'm way too lazy for that. anyway i think i am going to do something for a change.

2011-01-24T18:10:00.000-08:00

It is recommended that you follow up with a mental health professional for a full evaluation.Your anxiety seems to have become problematic in your day-to-day life, as you have surely realized at this point. It could be holding you back from doing necessary things, putting a damper on experiences that have the potential to be wonderful, or causing some problems in your relationships.

2011-01-11T06:10:00.001-08:00

i would never admit it.
never again
ever.

You left me broke down beggin for change

2011-01-08T18:26:00.000-08:00

he was the bastard.........he was born with the same blue eyes.........Tried to hide his tearz in a world of fun..............But loveless bedrooms filled with doom...........I don’t mean to close the door............for the record my heart is sore.................You blew through me like bullet holes..........You left me broke down beggin for change..............different time same place..............Pain much deep that a river..........this generic love shit

2011-01-03T13:07:00.000-08:00

if i could die
it would be all over

2010-12-20T16:10:00.001-08:00

van ez a bajom hogy szomjas vagyok allandoan

2010-12-14T04:18:00.001-08:00

Mom: Damn how many times are you gonna listen to that song?

Me: Until it the play button decides to stop working.

Mom: Fuck you, im going to sleep.

lol..

2010-12-13T03:33:00.001-08:00

i am embarrassed to be in your internet presence

deep

2010-12-11T21:33:00.000-08:00

meghalt.-mondta quinn- sajnos felakasztotta magát.
de semmi más, mint nagy adag baráti unalom.
ha egész nap ******* kellene törődnöm, bele is őrülnék.

.

2010-12-08T10:42:00.000-08:00

i remember when i used to feel something.
now i'm just cold inside

?

2010-12-07T04:01:00.001-08:00

Uber fail. Why won’t this anxiety just fuck right off?

nono

2010-12-05T17:16:00.000-08:00

2010-12-05T17:13:00.001-08:00

es becsukom a szemem es ugy erzem lehanyom

2010-12-03T15:10:00.000-08:00

14.)Ugyanazok a rossz gondolatok foglalkoztatnak visszatérő jelleggel.
24.) Bűntudatom van a múltban történtek miatt.

me

2010-12-01T14:30:00.000-08:00

never have to be alone

2010-11-29T01:32:00.000-08:00

i think happiness was the appropriate feeling i should've felt, like the other girls, but - i wasn't able to.

-

2010-11-28T16:18:00.000-08:00

and now it's me who don't gives a damn ;)

2010-11-06T19:39:00.001-07:00

not interested not attending not in love not like not

?

2010-11-04T13:54:00.000-07:00

2010-11-04T13:52:00.003-07:00

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2010-11-04T13:52:00.001-07:00

They didn’t agree on much. In fact they rarely agreed on anything. They fought all the time and they challenged each other everyday…But in spite their differences, they had one important thing in common, they were crazy about each other.

coming to get me

2010-10-31T01:54:00.000-07:00

It should be me that wants to get rid of you instead it’s you that don’t give a damn (what?) It was meant to be a one night ‘ting, nothing more than a little one night fling, now when I’m in need you’re the one I ring

2010-10-24T14:22:00.001-07:00

can't you see that it fuckin hurts me

pretty

2010-10-21T05:06:00.000-07:00

i only want you when i can't have you.
i like the chase, and that's all.

3

2010-10-17T13:04:00.001-07:00

you taste like a fucking Nutella

l

2010-10-16T11:30:00.000-07:00

If I don't get first place, I'd rather not play at all.

everything is all or nothing.
My stomach gets upset for no identifiable reason.
I experience extremes in mood, moving from elated and hyper to deeply depressed.

2010-10-16T11:05:00.000-07:00

You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Yourself: You are really hiding your true self.
Education: You have many practical ideas.
Job: You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance.
Success: You are confident that you will be successful.
Afraid: You are afraid of things that you cannot control.

2

2010-10-14T02:12:00.000-07:00

today

1

2010-10-13T09:46:00.001-07:00

first day when i don't feel like a complete ass all day long, and i don't want to harm myself because of those stupid things i feel and they like to call love..........
maybe this has to do something with the fact that i bought 3 clothes today and i am going to be really drunk in a couple hours. sad, i think

?

2010-10-11T07:23:00.000-07:00

mért nem mondtad az elején, nyílván hagytam volna az egészet a picsába

until nov 25

2010-10-05T16:02:00.000-07:00

forget about him and all the shit.
find someone else.
feel better.
no more lies about those things to best friends.
don't care about the world.
tell him the truth.
go out more.
drink less.
do that fucking revenge.

.

2010-10-04T17:09:00.000-07:00

here comes trouble

2010-10-01T13:05:00.000-07:00

csinalunk streetstyleblogot megint haha

?

2010-10-01T13:02:00.002-07:00

no m

2010-10-01T13:02:00.001-07:00

im not alone now

no i never

2010-10-01T09:36:00.000-07:00

yes i did
(i hate being alone)

2010-09-30T14:57:00.003-07:00

i hate everything.

so stop telling me to ‘hang in there’ and that ‘things get better’ because i’m impatient and if you even gave enough of a shit about me to get to know me, like you seem to think you do, you’d know that fact. nothing is good right now and i’m sick and tired of trying. just listen to what i have to say and give me some real solid advice. absolute fucking idiots, seriously.

i need my own island.

ww

2010-09-30T14:11:00.000-07:00

What was i thinkin' about? Ah who cares, i'm maaaashed.
Totally fucked, cant hardly fuckin' stand.
This is fuckin amazing; argh

ages

2010-09-30T14:07:00.002-07:00

where the fuck are you..

can't see her or him

got to get rid of these pills here goes nothing okay

HMM, BRANDY OR BEER? WATERS A GOOD IDEA
Wish that bar lady'd appear; and come serve over here.
Where the fuck could they be? still not over in the corner,
This nights a tragedy, i keep thinking i saw him.
No thats not them, thats not them either...

dd

2010-09-30T14:07:00.001-07:00

save yourself, you are still here.. sadly

!

2010-09-28T14:10:00.000-07:00

you must really love each other.. like hardcore

airplanes

2010-09-28T14:07:00.001-07:00

shitty

2010-09-28T14:03:00.000-07:00

naponta csak pár pixelt látok belőled, és még azt sem a saját fényképezőmö keresztül. fáj na.

azt sem tudom kiről beszélek ew

2010-09-20T15:51:00.000-07:00

apám: egésznap csak nézed ezeket, amiket meg nem találtál eddig meg azt tovább keresed

~

2010-09-14T03:30:00.000-07:00

jimmy eat world - disintegration

2010-09-14T03:29:00.000-07:00

by mate moro, i guess

2010-09-10T16:11:00.000-07:00

na aztán majd meglátjuk mi lesz a véleményem

!

2010-09-10T15:37:00.000-07:00

we did this to you. we did this to you

we did this to you

2010-09-10T15:36:00.001-07:00

Je veux qu'ils s'en aller

2010-09-10T15:33:00.000-07:00

tu m'as fait faire ces choses stupides, il m'a fait faire beaucoup d'années

!!!

2010-09-09T14:32:00.000-07:00

2010-09-09T14:30:00.001-07:00

aztán.felállunk mindketten és hazamegyünk a francba.

latenightsex

2010-09-04T14:32:00.002-07:00

egy ipod touch 4g + nikon sb 900 = 5 m-ert jo lenne. nem is kell aludjak, igy is almodok

2010-09-04T14:32:00.001-07:00

B: eszti!! te vagy a legjobb stilusu ismerösöm! fogadd el ezt a szivet : ♥ :D:D:D

dankeee<3

2010-08-21T16:27:00.001-07:00

put my life back together right nownownownownownownow

a kispállal az a bajom

2010-08-17T15:34:00.000-07:00

hogy sosem tudtam szeretni a zenéjüket, ezért kimaradtam ebből az egészből, és mindig hülyén érzem magam házibulikban vagy akárhol amikor tol mindenki egy randomkispált

2010-08-16T14:25:00.001-07:00

nem vagy te egy kicsit kabbeafaszom?

2010-08-16T03:27:00.000-07:00

I'M GONNA RUN AWAY. I'M SERIOUS. I'M GONNA RUN AWAY.

not thinking twice

2010-08-01T16:37:00.001-07:00

falling in love wasn't part of the plan

recently

2010-07-11T04:35:00.000-07:00

swinger's show:

2010-07-06T07:46:00.000-07:00

call it even.

'falling in love wasn't part of the plan.

2010-07-05T09:26:00.000-07:00

love jak and jil's blog, it's like awesome.

downloading mozarts' complete concerto atm.
how nothing to do boredlikeshit

2010-07-01T09:40:00.001-07:00

it's ok for me to have everything i want.

anyone

2010-06-28T06:32:00.000-07:00

song 42 - Nickelback - Photograph. A song that you used to love but now hate. i have my reasons.

what s wrong with the world

2010-06-27T14:29:00.000-07:00

is everybody going crazy? is anybody gonna save me?
can't you see that i love you?

song 41 - Atreyu - The right side of the bed. A song that no one would expect you to love.

2010-06-26T03:27:00.000-07:00

So my mom stole my empty container of nutella from my room

because she wants to buy me another container and she doesn’t know what nutella looks like and she doesn’t want too buy me the wrong kind….

what.

mom.

NUTELLA IS NUTELLA IT SAYS NUTELLA

NUTELLA.. IT’S JUST.. NUTELLA

THERE ARE NO WRONG KINDS OF NUTELLA

works

2010-06-20T23:30:00.001-07:00

song 40 - A song that is a guilty pleasure - Eminem - Lose Yourself (SKC Remix)

2010-06-17T08:37:00.000-07:00

song 39 - A song from a band you hate - Flogging Molly - Black Friday Rule

2010-06-16T12:43:00.000-07:00

song 38 - A song from your favorite band - Alex Band - Only One. love it right now, don't know why, not my style at all...

2010-06-13T01:52:00.000-07:00

the fucks and the fuckups

2010-06-11T01:27:00.000-07:00

i am wasted again. as always

you must really love each other... like hardcore.
song 37 - AFI - Prelude 12/21 - A song that makes you fall asleep. now i realized that i am a huge afi fan.

i'm falling apart

2010-06-08T02:12:00.000-07:00

song 36- t.i. - whatever you like. - A song that you can dance to

na

2010-06-06T15:06:00.000-07:00

ezzel megyünk párizsba :]]

song 35 - Uffie - First Love. A song that you know all the words to.

!!!!!!

2010-06-03T14:16:00.000-07:00

Nervo Tv, Branding Fox from Jorge Barrera on Vimeo.

fucking awesome

ASCENSION from chris lavelle on Vimeo.